the-angel-akki:

for wasting my time & making me look like an idiot, yes we did go thru all that to end up strangers.

a true friend definitely leaves on ur bday weekend to go on vacation @ arrowhead (or w/e), while u move his shit to keep his greedy pockets fat. he pays u in one gram of ur hardest battling addiction & calls it doing YOU a favor. AFter years of figuring out who i dealt with and how i work at music studios; he uses all that info for his own greedy pockets - after ive let him use my moms house//my apartment to do more selfish reproductions of the way I conduct business. I NEVER ASKED FOR SHIT. BCUZ WHEN I LOVE I LOVE WITH NO BOUNDS.  YET WHEN I ASKED FOR HELP….theres no help, but then when i make it happen for myself, u claim that its “ur” custy.

then im DEMANDED to explain? …after i sat in jail with only one person i knew i could count on to call? 

..like u didnt technicallly take every custy i had, used my places to make ur wax, and took the music studio idea.. not to mention all those times i came to jump ur car ..why tf did u call me huh? cuz im a fucking doormat to u? like everybody else? oh how about that time you asked for free patternmaking for YOUR brand?? Like i cant be making shit for my own (which i am now instead of getting paid nothing).  a real friend tries to jip u on ur work, right…

dont mention it, but u snitched on urself WHILE DRUNK - u told me that YOU TOLD, the opposing party - BUT COMPLETELY FORGOT U TOLD ME cuz u were drunk ofc. only one snitch i see here. yes, great friend - went and turned his back to talk shit to everybody else before even asking me about it. nonetheless paid for the lawyer for the other guy, just because the other dude said he’d give his customers in trade…all i had done for him just to have my lifestyle replicated and copied just for my “best friend” to make money to have nobody there for me in the end. Then, he expects ME, to tell him what happened… look you showed where your real allegiance is - you paid for HIS lawyer…go ahead and ask HIM. cuz i damn well had to struggle to get mine paid, and he did his damn funking job. You know whats the funniest part of this all? you think you know me so well, i said what i said as a last text because i know youre too prideful to ever change or to even let the words “sorry” come out of ur mouth. You couldnt even tell the girl u loved that u love her. YOU COULD HAVE HAD WHAT YOU WANTED, but didnt all because of your selfish pride. u still call urself a man? Id rather you repeat your mistakes forever than say a word, just like the girl u loved.

money is all u ever cared about, thats why u used it as a stupid excuse to urself about why u didnt need the love of ur life. “Im good, ill just make this money”. the only person uve ever done “it” for, is urself, even when u do it for other people - u do it to: make urself feel good, expect something in return (the usual), or to say u did it. 

beautiful, when u see everybody who claims to be ur friend gossip, before trying to ask u or confront you about shit. why SHOULD I spend my time reaching out to people who talked shit about me, for me to “explain myself” for hours, to a crowd. the only jokes are the ones im looking at. On multiple levels that they couldnt even try to grasp, nonetheless even admit.

Im sober, my bfs completely sober now. I’m almost done with school, just dabbled in the marijuana industry one last time for funs, Im doing damn well lmao, its quite comedic.

The story goes like this, early 2018 my doped up (at the time) bf was kicking me out every other night and calling me a whore from the trauma that i had induced on him, from loving him and another man at the same time. I worked to prove myself. Oh dont forget i was in and out of hotels when i decided to start falling out with my best friend (yes it was felt before he even betrayed me) i worked to be better, i worked to be more patient, to be a better listener - tormented every night with my shit thrown at me to leave while not letting me leave. Hours evry couple nights i quietly sat there trying to bring peace and understanding to a drug addict. i had school during too, had taken up a fashion show, and studying quantum/metaphysics/occult/alchemy and the secrets of the universe. I slept so little, was so preoccupied with the dramas of dating a heroin addict, yet i still found ways to read and learn and really raised IQ points too. I had NOBODY, partly because when u truly go sober, u cut everyone off for a brief time

but i didnt even have my bf…he was in lala land and wanted me to prove my loyalty to the point that he was just always distrusting, or trying to manipulate or yell to have us go pick up his bs. Hit many lowpoints, and found higher ones. hurt to see all my friends subtweeting me, acting weird, and hearing from my ex what everybody is saying… and you know what i did? I got the fuck up, & FOUND THE STRENGTH IVE ALWAYS HAD. those werent my real friends and honestly it feels really good to finally be out of the loop…fucking idiots lmao - srsly. i explained what happened one time and the story is taken and turned into a rumor and gossiped. nice job, only a truly FEMALE’ could do it. 

with all that strength, newfound knowledge, patience, and knowing how intelligent i really am, I MADE STRIVES. I was able to support my bf enough to get sober, I’m sober too. genuinely, im a better person. My career goals are actually at the 1.5 year stage of my short term career plan, and i cant believe im actually on track! i have money invested into stocks now, I could write a book on occult… I have a huge internship that will propel my career…. idk what kind of negative shit people try to fling at me, but I’m ready. I always will be. I stand alone stronger in the face of adversity, than I did with these fake friends by my side. Everything im doing now is everything i wanted to do and to help offer opportunities to my old friends - to help create and make real money from…. but i guess it they all fell off in perfect timing lmao, that was close. If they were in my plans, i would have been getting screwed over.

for crying out loud they kicked me out of a groupchat because i didnt have an iphone 3 years ago… lmao what kind of shallow fucks. all these interactions actually did is hold me back.

I’d tell them to “look at me now” but also i could really care less aboout appealing to them. im going to be good, because im really a good person - that was never a lie, was never bullshit. 

people underestimated me lol, now theyre obsessed. 

2018 thank you for helping me find strength and big love to my old best friend, all of this really wouldnt have been possible without you. 

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uniej:

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